"Whether you look to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'This is the way, walk in it." (Is. 30:21)
This season of transition and fundraising has been an absolute whirlwind. The kind where you are already half way down the road when you look down and realize you are wearing two different shoes again. Yes, again… The kind where you are in the middle of explaining something that is very dear to your heart and all of a sudden your thought processes are sliced in two and you just stare blankly. The kind where you live out of a suitcase and eat meals on the go. The kind where you get heavy news one week, sad news the next, only to be followed by, more uncomfortable news the week after.
Not to mention, we are now in a full blown moving phase- the kind where EVERYTHING. MUST. GO. Every ledge and sill wiped, every hole filled and touched up.
Oh, except for this one, this one has to stay until we hand over the keys. It's been a constant reminder to take things one at a time during this season.
OK, OK, all of this to tell you beautiful people where my sanity has been coming from. In the midst of opposition or frustrating weeks, I have grasped strongly to the verse Matthew 8:13, "Go! It will be done just as you believed it would."
Since May, this verse has met me every morning as I fill my coffee maker with oh so sweet smelling grounds. It's in a booklet of verses I received at a conference last year. It was due a page turn a while ago, but I had grown attached to the comforting words that pulled courage and determination from my innermost being. It helped me know, "Yes, you are inside my will, and you are going to do ministry in Alaska, keep pushing through."
This morning when I read it, I thought, "Kristen, you really ought to turn the page and see what's next"… followed by, "No, what could possibly be better than these words that I've held on to all summer?"
I turned the page...
"I trust in you. O Lord; I say, 'You are my God.' My times are in Your hands." (Ps. 31:14,15) Sometimes, I find myself choosing to stay in one spot (that is a perfectly good spot- it may even have been from HIM), when HE is trying to, in fact, guide me into the next… which is actually better than the good!
I needed a push.
He lights our path as we walk. This verse is speaking of our circumstances, but the Lord has a sense of humor… and so this morning, I took it quite literal. "My TIMES are in your hands."
We are at 82% of our budget needed to leave for and live in Alaska. With mounting excitement and a flood of encouraging team members that believe in what we do and have partnered with us- we have begun thinking more seriously about leaving dates, goodbye trips, driving routes, when is the right time to trade in our vehicle, the right time to get a moving truck, etc. I found myself getting anxious yesterday about "timing"… Well, my times are in your hands Lord, there is nothing to worry about, I will choose to trust in You, God. "Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith… let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for HE who promised is faithful. (Heb. 10:22-24) He guides us steadily, and He has been my sanity.
Dear ones, wherever you are right now, don't be afraid to take the next step.
He who began a good work, will complete it.
HE CAN BE TRUSTED.
Full of love and joy, she was always the life of the party,
always so willing to give, always your biggest fan.